At the End of the World

For God's sake!!11

2005-08-21T19:37:42Z

Neh my dreams are never stopping xD
in this one, the family was also vacationing
on a beach but then all of a sudden these huge waves come crashing
and there was a blot of red on the waters when the first wave hit.
so we decided to run to a safer spot (and it was jeju island)
and i asked mom and dad if this new spot was the place where
they took their honeymoon shots. they said no-_- it was on the other side.
anwyays, as we ran this hideous looking wild boar came running after us but
ran a diff direction. the dream scene changed, into a dark atmosphere
where i was trying to climb a fuckin tall ladder, and a bus was
helping me (i don't know how) at the top. it turns out me and my sister
go to a bizarre school ina strange town or something and the teacher
was kind of bald and freaky. there were these electronic things
that i guess gave student profiles and everytime the bald head picture of the
teacher came up on the profile and nothing else, the student was dead.
so yea can't remember much-_- except my siser and i had interesting cloths
(the closet was huge!!)
anyways dad and brother went ot look at houses.

i have got to stop binging

2005-08-21T03:45:47Z

that is all.
i have 2 weeks.

My god what the hell is wrong with my brain

2005-08-20T17:20:51Z

or the thingy that triggers dreams?
I am having bizzarre dreams!!
this time, it was a really snowy setting, and i was wearing uggs-_-
our house was biger and had a basement (perhpas it was edmonton^^)
anywyas, a lightening struck our house and a few ppl got electrocuted
in the house (there were many people in the house-maybe dad's friends)
and happy was smaller. the dream is getting fuzzier in my mind.
there was also an earthquake that lasted long enough for me and happy
to realize it upstairs and come down with sister down the stairs and then
looking out the nook, it stopped. outside was a little bit dark.
fuzzy....argh anywyas more people died. someone like betrayed us or something
lots of gunshots too, and military wear.
we also rented a movie which i cant remember, but the subtitles were in like
barcode font. weird. and yoojin was in the dream too.
we were playing in some downtown area and emails popped up in my mind.
i remember having 3 enw emails.-_-
but then more people in the house died.
i ran away from two little black kids that wanted to shoot me.
i ran from white military people.
all the while i held happy.
none of my family died.
i also remember having some kind of soup.
hmmmmmmm

weiiiiird dream

2005-08-20T02:43:13Z

so the first dream that i had (during the night) was that
my brother got beat up by his friends and that me and lisa were
going to beat up the rotten ones. yes weird. in the dream, my
mom helped him home and they also had a bike to pull home,
and his nose was bleeding and his mouth was bleeding and he wanted
to go to the emergency room. and me and lisa were getting dressed
to beat the crap outta the kids. and then i woke up to the overwhelming
smell of...yes lavender from a can-_-
i had a dream before this one but i cannot remember. ㅠㅠ i think i liked this one.
or it was equally disturbing.
i took a nap, in which feels like i had this same dream before, but
the difference was that in my dream, i was trying to remember the
dream i had before and act differently to my benefit.
i had my middle finger of my right hand like cut off just below the
nail part, and i was desperately trying to get to a hospital,
but i was in a school with really bad people trying to do something-i don't know what
htey were like industry people and this one woman who was i think, the cafeteria woman,
tried to steal my cut off finger and so yea it was pretty weird.
right after when i woke up, i felt that this was signifying my hatred towards
people who only want good for themselves and are selfish, as they wouldn't let me go to the hospital.
today brother had dentist appointment, and i remembered right now taht i forgot once again
to make the appointment to the optometrist for eye exams. damnnn
anyways, we thought the appointment was at 1:15 but it was in fact 1:45.
and i was hungry afterwards so we went to the lougheed food court and ate.
and then we came back.
i think our house is sold. which is not really timewise because i got my school schedule today
and i have really good teachers!!!T-T
oh well i gotta give them a call to say i'll be moving. w00000t;...???

you'd kill me well

2005-08-19T02:51:02Z

hm will the beloved house get sold or just sit here ??
where the hell (or rather around the bc area) will our family be movign to?/ XD

hmz

2005-08-18T05:36:10Z

well today was the provincial for geography12.
thought the test was okay, easy on some questions and some hard.
i filled out every written part!! yay
my final mark rounded off was 92, so pretty happy about thatXD
stupid arrogant dude emailing = stop T-T we know you're smart for fucks sake
the sarcasm of this guy is overflowing with the cockiness of a ... idunno.
did nothing today like any other. wanted to make a new york style cheesecake
but mommy and also i were too lazy to go to a store to buy ingredients.
instead, mom dad and i, after the unstudied test which hurt my fingers alot!!,
went to phohoa and ate vietnames noodle. yummm
and sister make a very yummy chocolate chip and peanut butter cup cookie batch
which i hungrily ate and afterwards felt too sleepy, so i took a nap
and skipped dinner.
i exercised!! + 0+for an hour
and since i took a nap i don't think i'll be sleeping soon.XD
overall okay day for me.

잊지않았으니...

2005-08-11T08:07:37Z

잊지 않았으니 해맑은 웃음
빛나던 우리 옛날들을
이미 지웠으니 숨 가쁜 눈물
까맣게 병든 내 모양은

그대 고운 내 사랑아
손을 잡아다오
다시 내게로 와서
곱디 고운 꽃 노래 처럼

가득 낀 먼지를 털어온 거울
흐린 달빛에 씻어보네
세월에 깊은 잠 푸석한 얼굴
새벽 이슬로 단장하고

그대 고운 내 사랑아
손을 잡아다오
다시 내게로 와서
곱디 고운 꽃 노래처럼

사랑 아직 그 자리에
한번도 이별 못한 이별 속에서
다시 돌아오는 그날
그 때는 우리가
이세상을 다 가질테니

그대 고운 내 사랑아
손을 잡아다오
다시 내게로 와서
곱디 고운 꽃 노래처럼
웃네

this song is so sad...
i feel like i should elaborate or something but
sometimes you can't put what you're feeling into words i guess.
made a chicken pot pie today,
persoanlly i think it was bad... not as i expected
possibly because i had veggie stock instead of chicken stock?? - -
and the fact that i got cream of mushroom instead of cream of chicken
whatev. we finished it anyway^^
went to futureshop so sister could buy cheap dvds yay
cuz we had a showing at 730 so unexpectedly
did evaluation thingy on two case studies which ended at 1130
gard im trying to study for the test tomorrow but
im writing this journal instead so i guess that explains how much crap i managed to get into my brain...
i am going to like empty my stomach fro now on
i cant breathe@!!!!-_-damnnzz
and i have to set up an app for eye exam
for the 3 of us now
i keep putting it off to call the opto office
meanwhile all letters are getting fuzzier....-_-!!

new set goals

2005-08-10T06:29:45Z

mondays

15 - 58
22 - 53
29 - 49
5 - 45
12 - 45 endddddd

month at a glance~~~
have dentist app at 13, the saturday at 12:45.
gotta set up an app for an eye exam at the opto
i can seriously see something wrong literlaly
cause my eyes are rather fuzzy these days and i have to
look at things twice to confirm the words and such.
les sighs stupid i should have taken better care and not
spend so much time staring at dumby stuff like tv and comp.
sa;ldkfjas;lkdfj
oh well

8 9 10 11 12 13 14
15 16 17 18 19 20 21
22 23 24 25 26 27 28
29 30 31 1 2 3 4
5 6 7 8 9 10 11
12 13 14 15 16 17 18

believe me its not easy...

2005-08-10T06:23:56Z

damn rite
ive binged for like a week straight
gard
summer school is alomst coming to an end!!!
yes a sweet ending
but then there's the final.
oh wellz...
my last date is set to sept. 16 gotta lose 16 by then!!
im so full of shit and gas rite now- -;;
gah and i haven't updated in so long!!
i feel so lazy and especailly because i don't go out these days
and i want a job!!! T-T

am i getting lazy or what~

2005-08-02T20:14:57Z

yea i've eaten lke a pig for the past few days
bummer
gotta start all over again
today my stomach was going gagagagaa;lfjs; crazy
gah
my chin is flaky :P

missed a day^^

2005-07-29T20:47:23Z

have i been that busy? i didn't think so, but oh well^^
i know i'll be busy this weekend that's for sure...
but its a long weekend+ 0+!! -_-...ive got nothing to do anyways.
3 pages of el nino essay and a paragraph on my neighbourhood is waiting for moi.
i walked home from wendys.
dunno why, i felt like it. (weirdo)
un sigh...ahhhh home is good
i think i burned my back T-T
i only like the first part of this song
wish they did something with the melody of the first part...^^

oh yea yesterday was my sister's birthday^^
i feel bad cuase i coudln't get anything rite away
but she wanted money so i guess it's okay
but then i feel short because i have no freakin job so
me and brother gotta borrow money from mom and dad T0T
ate a piece of chocolate cake yesterday yum
but i was so bloated yesterday^^

ooh

2005-07-28T01:53:47Z

The German Civilian
Achtung! You are 53% brainwashworthy, 27% antitolerant, and 38% blindly patriotic

Had you lived in Germany in first half of the 20th century, you'd have probably just gone with the flow. Men with guns are surrounding the house next door? The bagel place on the corner's gone? Hmm...whatever.

The data show you're a decent person who's willing to listen to what people of authority tell you. That's what most people are, and in most times and most places, that's ok. But not then.

The sad conclusion: You would've missed your Jewish friends, but you would've done nothing about it. Seriously. Rest assured, you would've forgiven yourself eventually.

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 84% on brainwashworthy

You scored higher than 38% on antitolerant

You scored higher than 55% on patriotic

Link: The Would You Have Been a Nazi Test written by jason_bateman on Ok Cupid

my birthday

2005-07-27T03:38:05Z

Your Birthdate: June 19

Your birth on the 19th day of the month adds a tone of independence and extra energy to your life path.

But at the same time, it poses a number of obstacles to overcome before you are able to be as independent as you would like. The number 1 energy suggests more executive ability and leadership qualities than your path may have indicated.

A birthday on the 19th of any month gives greater will power and self-confidence, and very often a rather original approach. However, a somewhat self-centered approach to life that may be in conflict with some of the other influences in your life.

This 1 energy may diminish your ability and desire to handle details, preferring instead to paint with a broad brush.

You are sensitive, but your feeling stay somewhat repressed.

You have a compelling manner that can be dominating in many situations.

You do not tend to follow convention or take advice very well.

Consequently, you tend to learn through experience; sometimes hard experiences.

The 19/1 is a loner number and you may experience feelings of being alone even if you are married.

You may take on a tendency to be nervous and angry.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

me a fatso

2005-07-27T03:34:42Z

gr ate so much at dinner today
am full rite now...T-t

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird...
But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

You Are an Espresso

At your best, you are: straight shooting, ambitious, and energetic

At your worst, you are: anxious and high strung

You drink coffee when: anytime you're not sleeping

Your caffeine addiction level: high

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

gotta do lots of exercise rite now...
i absolutely can't be normal when i feel so full
gahhh
good thing i took a nap though.

hmpzzzz

2005-07-26T06:30:46Z

rain next monday @weathernetwork.com
yes! im so weird i can't wait for the rain
anyways, ate an ice cream bar today ara;jdf;
going to sleep now^^
oh yea shit i have to read stupid shit abuot fog -_-

drowsiness

2005-07-25T22:01:52Z

whew...
i am now going to take the 160 and then switch to c38.
so much faster!! altough i missed the 38 today.
hm
came home, ate some seaweed(yes.) and then exercised for a hour.
i don'tknow what it is in my stomach; hunger or just burns from eating too much hot suace.
ooooahhghasjdfaljf

late nite fun with stupid quizzes^^

2005-07-25T06:25:56Z

You are a water person. You are flexable and very
nice. You are quiet so people who don't know
you thnk you are weird or just mean and high
and mighty like. You aren't though. You like
to have a good time and you also just like to
relax and just enjoy the stars.

Who are you inside?
brought to you by Quizilla

You Are 31% American

America: You don't love it or want to leave it.
But you wouldn't mind giving it an extreme make over.
On the 4th of July, you'll fly a freak flag instead...
And give Uncle Sam a sucker punch!

How American Are You?

Your Inner European is Irish!

Sprited and boisterous!

You drink everyone under the table.

Who's Your Inner European?

aaaaaand sleeping past 11pm again. baaaad^^

fullness

2005-07-25T02:40:33Z

i ate to much at dinner today
im so sleepy but i can't sleep...gotta do hw!!
i wanna kill the stupid bastard- -+
these things don't even come up in the provincials

I think.

2005-07-24T07:40:30Z

that religion is necessary. (for me, anyways).
These days i actually want to go to church. Be a catholic. Proper one too.
I want to confess. I actually want to pray a bit.
I feel like reading the bible.
What has changed me? I don't know XD!
I used to be the girl that hated sunday school with everything.
Hated going to mass and standing up and sitting down again and going up for bread.
i remember I was one of those kids that would go up with the
tray with the bread and sometimes collection baskets...
What is up with the sudden motivation?
It's not bad at all, actually. Although i don't think my sister or brother would like to go to church avec moi.
maybe Catherine would.^^

exausting day

2005-07-24T04:32:36Z

sort of.
it was sunny all day!! i wished for rain :X
anyways, mommy left at 8am,
and i said bye and hugged her.
then i woke up at 11am to start cleaning up
for the open house^^
went out before 2pm( starting time)
and then went to eat chinese food at chunji
so displeasing!!!!11 (service-wise)
anyways, and then we went to a park past all the golf courses in pitt meadows.
me sister brother and dog walked for about 35minutes in the hot sun
and happy refused to walk the way there but walked back. shes still cute, so i'll forgive her^^
spent until 4pm there and then headed to tim hortons for icedcapps.
and then home, and then mommy came home, and then she went for grocieries with sister
and then sister and i exercised(seperately) and mommy, daddy, and kevin ate by themselves.
i exercised from 8pm to 9, and it felt good.^^
but our neighbours probably thought i was a mental retardo.
anyways, tomorrow!11 is one week gone.XD

tgif

2005-07-23T03:38:29Z

yes. friday + _+1!1
i thought it was gonna rain today but i guess not.
evening is pretty niceXD
should i go for a walk? shoud i not? bleh
people should never give me decisions.
anyways, tomorrow is open house from 2 to 5.
i think we're going to a park or something.
today i ate rice wit some soup, and dinner.
i hope i can reach my goal by the end of the week (sunday.)

lots of dead useless quizzes

2005-07-22T21:29:14Z

BLUE

You give your love and friendship unconditionaly. You enjoy long, thoughtful conversations rich in philosophy and spirituality. You are very loyal and intuitive.

Find out your color at Quiz Me!

Are you Addicted to the Internet?

38%

Newbie (21% - 40%)
You've started to learn that there is more to the internet than AOL. You've recovered from that email virus that wiped your hard drive and are thinking of getting DSL. You still tend to forward too many jokes and inspirational thoughts via email to your entire address book.

The Are you Addicted to the Internet? Quiz at Quiz Me!

my maad speedy reading skilllllzzz

2005-07-22T20:48:00Z

You read between 300 - 350 words per minute. Above-average reading level. (The average rate is between 200 - 250 words per minute.) It is assumed that you did not skim the words nor fail to understand the meaning of what was read.

어째서 넌 날 잡지도 않았었냐고...(10월4일)

2005-07-22T20:40:14Z

hmph this song makes me sad.
but well i'm feeling quite good today^^
my stomach was weird from the morning- -;
jeez and all i had was a juice box (the stuff is kinda nasty1!)
and rite now diet pepsi.
i think i should eat solid foods xD

tired as hell

2005-07-22T00:05:12Z

homework sucks T -T
i took like 4 hours to finish an assignment and i feel so tired~
i think i'll have to take a nap or something after a shower. or maybe shower comes later?
gahh
i don't think i have much appetite today, i feel pretty full anyways from ice cream and chips-again.
i feel so anti social rite now -_- why why why